This week has been a pretty stressful week for me but it has also been exciting. It can be tough when there are such emotional mood swings but thankfully my prior work with a counselor has really helped me manage those swings. I don’t let my depression and anxiety control me anymore.
I feel like I have learned a lot over the past couple months. Life is full of little lessons and I have been realizing a lot of them lately. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason and people or opportunities enter our life when they are supposed to. Whether it is permanently or just for a period of time, there is usually something to learn from if you take a look.
For me it has been with people. I have realized I need to be better in relationships with people. I wrote about it in this blog if you are interested in reading. Taking a bit of time to reflect (thankfully not overthinking the issue) on the people I met this past year and how those encounters played out has taught me a lot. Definitely thank for all the encounters and what I learned. I think it will really help me going forward.
I love that I am constantly becoming a better version of me!!!
The week started with my mom telling me they think my 100 year old grandma had a mini stroke. She had a pretty bad day with one side not functioning very well and she didn’t want to get out of bed. Given the fact that I am a 3 hour flight and then a 3 hour drive to get to where she is, I have accepted that each time I say good bye to her, it might be the last time I do so. It isn’t something that I am really good with but it is a reality. I was very close to her when I was growing up and I have a lot of wonderful memories. Thankfully she has had a couple of decent days since so fingers crossed she continues to improve.
Work has been crazy busy and I find myself spending evenings working. I don’t mind doing it but with other things going on, and this flu bug still draining my energy, I would prefer to have some more chill days where I can just focus on my own work and then go home at 4:30. Once I kind of get caught up I think it should be better.
The exciting part of the week was getting a phone call telling me I have advanced to the next stage of a job interview. While it is exciting, I found out the next stage is an interview and two presentations! Geez! So I have spent this weekend working on the information I need to put together for that. Also it takes an afternoon of work so it puts me further behind. Having said that, I am excited for the challenge and I really think these experiences are amazing for my development.
To put it into perspective, when I was struggling with depression and anxiety, there was NOOOOO chance I would have put myself into this position and if I did, I would probably back out due to the anxiety. I am so happy to no longer be in that place. Yes I will still be nervous and anxious on the day but that is because I really hope I am able to get this job. I get the feeling it will be a good opportunity for me. Keeping the positive thoughts going that I can nail this interview!
Of course as I am busy with work and this interview process, things pick up with the charity I volunteer with. We are in the process of hiring an executive director. There have been a lot of issues related to this but it has been a good experience to be on the hiring committee. Seems I have been on both sides of the table a lot lately!
Things I am grateful for
My Grandma. Without question, my life has been so much better because of this woman. I miss all of my grand parents equally but she is the last one alive and one that I have had the closest relationship with. Her life has been remarkable and I am lucky to have had her in my life for so long. She has literally been there since I was born (she helped deliver me).
My ability to recognize where I am wrong. It might take me a bit to get there. I may overwhelm or annoy some people along the way but I am seeing my faults and I am correcting them. That being the key….the willingness and desire to be better. Before, I would have just said whatever and tried my best to cope.
Everything around me. There are times I complain about such stupid stuff and then I sit on my comfy couch, watch a big tv, and chill out in my comfortable condo. I have tried to be more grateful for the situation I find myself in. Life could be so much more difficult and I could have a lot less so really, what do I have to complain about.
I am going to start meditating this week. Not sure how this will go but I have read a lot about it lately and seems to really be something successful people swear by. I have always had a very busy mind so I am not sure how it will go. Trying to be more mindful can’t be a bad thing. Will write about it and then update the blog as I try.
Time to sign off. Thanks for reading if you did…please feel free to comment if anything interested you. Here is a link to my previous weekly journal.