This week has been a bit up and down. It started with some stress, then chilled out a bit, got a bit stressful again and finally a pretty chill weekend.
The week started out stressful because of the job interview I had on Monday. It was the 3rd stage of the interview process and it included an interview portion along with two presentations. The interview was in the afternoon so my plan was to just prep myself by reviewing the presentation info in the morning. When I got to work and started to look at the material I noticed one of my presentations was way different from when I finished it on the Saturday. It turns out I saved it to a server on my work computer that was being removed on the weekend! WTF! As a result, I had to scramble Monday morning and change the presentation to get it to its finalized state. Ended up that the presentations went alright and I think the interview portion went well. I think I will find out this week if I move onto the next round. YES, THERE IS ANOTHER STAGE! GEEZ!!! Regardless what happens though, it has been a great experience.
Work was a bit stressful as well as I have been dealing with an annoying co-worker. I have started reviewing files and every time I ask her a question about her work she thinks it is a personal attack on her. Her responses to me have been pretty rude and it has tested my patience. It has been good though as it is an example I can use going forward. I handled the situation well enough that both my manager and her manager complimented me. It is a bit hard to focus on work when I have this other job interview process in the pipeline.
I also had a light bulb moment this week when I realized just how poorly I have been in some of the relationships I have fostered. Sometimes things just click and you see how pathetic you have been. I am embarrassed by my behavior and also disappointed in how I acted. No excuse really. At the time I guess I did what I thought I had to do based on my failures in the past but I went from one extreme to the next. I am thankful I have the ability to recognize that it was wrong and the ability (I hope) to correct it moving forward. Still, not something I wanted to have happen.
I am determined to better in this area of my life going forward. Most other areas are “fixed” compared to where I was a few years ago. Relationships seems to be a trickier one for me. I am confident I will get it all sorted out though.
I mentioned last week that I was going to try meditating but the week got away from me so it will start this week. I read Dan Harris’s book “10% Happier” which was amazing. He talks about meditation and takes out some of the spiritual stuff that not everyone understands. Me being one of those people. I read another book on mediation and mindfulness and I was pretty sure the author was on crack. I didn’t even know what half the passages even meant. They were like reading a bunch foo foo out of body nonsense. Dan Harris takes a more “normal” approach to it and tried to take the whole spiritual side out of it. I also started reading his second book yesterday. It walks you through the whole mediation process and how to get into it in a way that makes more sense.
I plan to keep this blog up to date with my progress or lack there of. It should be interesting. Click the links above to see more details about them. Highly recommended. I also have some other books I really recommend as well here.
OK that’s enough for tonight. I am feeling tired so plan to sleep early tonight.
Until next week, cheers!