Update: Long Time No See

Time for an update!

So I have not updated this blog for quite awhile now.  I had hoped to keep up with this more often but lately I have had a lot going on.  In many regards, getting out and being active was a goal this year so not having the time to update this isn’t a bad thing.

 

Work

Work has been pretty busy.  Since I didn’t get the manager position, I have been doing some work to train the new manager (yea, go figure) and taking on some different work.  I had a long chat with the manager I report to discussing the fact that I still want to get experience with managerial type work.  Should things change, I want to position myself in a position that I have a great chance to move into the opening.  Other than that, it has just been work as usual but a lot on my plate.

Volunteering

As I have mentioned before, I volunteer for Burnaby MoreSports as a board member.  I was on the hiring committee tasked with hiring a new Executive Director for the organization.  After a loooooong process, we finally found a good candidate and they start tomorrow.  It has been a good learning process and attending one of the events to see the kids playing sports was awesome.

Projects

I have been really busy working on a couple projects that I have on the go.  One is getting close to launching and I will provide more detail about it when I do.  It has been such a great experience learning about something new and challenging myself to be more creative.  One goal I set was to be more creative in some way.  I think it has helped keep me busy and really done a lot for my mental health.  There is something very rewarding about making something or creating something from scratch.  I had always wanted to in the past, but my anxiety would hold me back.

Phoenix

Holiday

I spent two weeks down in Phoenix in late Feb and early March.  This was an awesome trip.  The first week I was with some old friends who are scattered across Canada and the second week I was with my family from back home in Manitoba.  Lots of laughs, drinks, golf, play time with my nieces and relaxing by the pool.  It was good to get some sun and enjoy a bit of heat as well.  Summer cannot come quick enough!

 

Purchased a condo

This is something I have been wanting to do for awhile but I wanted to make sure I was in the right frame of mind first.  Unfortunately this waiting cost me a significant amount of money but I think it was important to be focusing on me health first.  Ensuring I was ready for what comes next in life was important to me.  I feel like I am there now and I am excited to move forward.

Personal

I have been feeling great over the last few months.  There are always days or periods of a day that are not great but that is life and I think we all deal with that kind of thing.  Since my real ah hah moment back in January, I have really worked on my thought process and stopping myself when I catch myself over thinking or over analyzing situations.  I am going with the flow more and just letting things be.  Realizing my thinking patterns were more of a habit is something I will expand on in a different post.  There are a few things I would like to be better but I think in time they will be.  My confidence in myself and what I am doing is so much better than it ever was.

little steps

 

 

Weekly Journal – February 5, 2018

Finally into February.  January seemed to go by pretty quickly.  Quite a bit happened this week so it also went by fast.  Staying busy with different activities has been good.

WORK

Work was busy this week as I have been pulled into several different projects.  Keeps me from getting to my own stuff which has been overwhelming at times but I enjoy the variety of work.  Seems my managers understand other work gets pushed back if I am doing priority work.  Not much news on this front but I am enjoying work a lot more than I ever have.

INTERVIEW PROCESS

I didn’t get the news I was hoping for this week with regards to the job application with the airport.  Unfortunately I was the runner up yet again.  I was told that I was an “extremely strong candidate” and was truly the runner up to an internal applicant.  Interesting to hear that there was an internal candidate in the running.  It is often pretty hard to beat out somebody they already know.

I can honestly say I was pretty disappointed about this result.  I had a good feeling about it and was hoping to land the position.  The HR contact stated that if anything changed or if another position was to open up in the near future they would contact me.  Although disappointed, the experience was great and I was able to do the interviews without extra anxiety getting to me.  I plan to email the lady who was in both interviews to ask for areas I can improve on so I know for next time.  All in all, I am happy I applied and went through the process.

HOLIDAY

Really looking forward to my 2 week vacation in Phoenix at the end of the month.  One week with my buddies and then a week with my family.  So excited.  Only concern is my ribs.  I have a slight tear in a rib muscle from when I had the flu (coughing) and it hasn’t healed.  It hurts when I sleep on it, exercise, take deep breathes and twist.  As I need to twist my body when I am golfing, it needs to heal!  I am staying positive that it will though.  Been taking it as easy as I can.

desert golf

PERSONAL STUFF

Feeling at peace with myself this past week.  For whatever reason, the last couple weeks have been big “ah hah” weeks.  I feel as though I recognized the mistakes I had been making in different areas and I understand how I need to act going forward.  It’s a good feeling to be able to self correct like that.  Granted I had to go through the process of messing up to get to that point but still confident I can be better going forward.  Still hopeful I can repair a couple of the relationships I have messed up but I have to accept that I might now.

I have also started this meditation experiment which has been interesting.  I haven’t had the chance to finish the book I am reading about it but I have started doing at least 5 minutes each morning before I start my day.  My brain has always been very active so this has been a challenge.  Trying to focus on the present and not a multitude of other “things” has been hard.  The jury is still out on the whole process though.

Watching the Super Bowl tonight and cooking some slow beer braised beef ribs tonight.  Also have another project that I started this weekend that I will share at a later date.  Need to get back to studying for my CIA exam but since I am off on holidays in a few weeks, I doubt I will get too into it just yet.

Mark Manson

Looking forward to reading some more tonight.  Love getting stuck in a great book.  Check out my “books you should read” page to see what I have finished.  Highly recommend them!

Hope you have a great week!

Weekly Journal – January 21, 2018

This week has been a pretty stressful week for me but it has also been exciting.  It can be tough when there are such emotional mood swings but thankfully my prior work with a counselor has really helped me manage those swings.  I don’t let my depression and anxiety control me anymore.

I feel like I have learned a lot over the past couple months.  Life is full of little lessons and I have been realizing a lot of them lately.  I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason and people or opportunities enter our life when they are supposed to.  Whether it is permanently or just for a period of time, there is usually something to learn from if you take a look.

For me it has been with people.  I have realized I need to be better in relationships with people.  I wrote about it in this blog if you are interested in reading.  Taking a bit of time to reflect (thankfully not overthinking the issue) on the people I met this past year and how those encounters played out has taught me a lot.  Definitely thank for all the encounters and what I learned.  I think it will really help me going forward.

I love that I am constantly becoming a better version of me!!!

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